I didn't get the job

"We hope you will apply later in your program, as you have a great deal to offer..."

I will not reapply.

I am tired of having my talents always at the disposal of any old institution that needs them, but at THEIR convenience: last minute, next year, anytime but now.

I do not want to coordinate composition.

All I want is a tiny modicum of stability, a source of income that does not demand all my time and is not designed to invoke all my anxieties by seeming to place an unreasonable amount of expectation on me, giving me an unreasonable amount of papers to grade/miles to drive for an unreasonably small wage.

I want the support that will allow me to reach "later in [my] program."

I would like to be able to know that I can work on my work, and also continue to pay the rent come summer and fall.

That is all.

Thank you.